He smiled at me tonight but I am sure he only smiled to acknowledge “hey you’re a friend of a friend.”

I just finished watching Lovestruck: the Musical.

In love with a duet… “Me Too”
Why!!!!

I want to tell you, but there’s so many words to say
I want to tell you, but the words get in my way
It’s all there on the tip of your tongue
My hearts full brain goes numb

So I’ll just ask you, do you?
I do, me too
So I’ll just ask you, do you?
I do, me too

I promise I’ll be there as the years go by
And I’ll be faithful to you till the day I die
Just to have to hold your hand makes me the luckiest man

While looking for this song, I found this…

I realize you’re seeing someone new
I don’t believe she knows you like I do
Your temperamental moody side
The one you always try to hide from me

But I know when you have something on your mind
You’ve been trying to tell me for the longest time
And before you break my heart in two
There’s something I’ve been trying to say to you

But the words get in the way
There’s so much I want to say
But it’s locked deep inside and if you look in my eyes
We might fall in love again

Won’t even start to cry
And before we say goodbye
I tried to say “I love you”
But the words got in the way

Your heart has always been an open door
But baby, I don’t even know you any more
And despite the fact it’s hurting me
I know the time has come to set you free

But the words get in the way
There’s so much I want to say
But it’s locked deep inside and if you look in my eyes
We might fall in love again

Won’t even start to cry
And before we say goodbye
I tried to say “I love you”
But the words got in the way

I’m trying to say “I love you”
But the words get in the way

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After last night, drinking and clubbing until 4am…
The rest of weekends spent in my own room playing Final Fantasy… That was the plan until I am hungry and looked in the fridge to find no creamer for coffee, no food for the lunches or the dinners to cook, and no snacks for while playing video games.
I guess I also need a haircut.

I forgot to celebrate my 365 days or a year of being in DC!

Now it’s over a year. I can’t say that I am new to the city.

Yet, I feel I haven’t done anything in that one year.

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A glass of wine an hour before I go to sleep.
Mmmmm.

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Oh how much I love my family.

My sister’s birthday is today. So I sent her a $100 e-GiftCard from Gilt (especially since there’s a sale today and there’s an extra 20% off).
Ordered a $200 GiftCard and asked my sister to go shopping with him for his birthday which he should be getting on the 5th.

I feel like I am being a lazy gifter. Hahaha. Oh well hope they got good use from them.

And I had to buy myself a Park&Ronen Derby Pants for myself for $39 when retail price is suppose to be $188. Oooh.
I am about to be broke.

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I wonder what people see in me.

Selfish, conceited, stoic…
Awkward, hermit, recluse…
Crazy…
Kind, caring, ambitious…
Loyal, intelligent, understanding…
Reasonable.

I don’t see myself having these traits.

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OMG did I just have a moment…

We should never forget our past that defines us.
We should always look towards the future (cause we need something to live for)
We live in the present and enjoy the time to make it our past for the future and make that our history.

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YES!!! It’s about to happen!

YES!!! It’s about to happen!

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Life can be so unfair.

Or I am just being jealous. (Though I am happy for him too)

My roommate got fired from his part-time job last Tuesday. He went off to visit his best friend in NYC on Friday. He came back to DC on Monday and told me that he has an audition for a music MA program in Baltimore on Wednesday. Last night, he told me that he got into the program with the offer directly from the head of the dept. 

He had gotten into a graduate program without any plans within just 10 days after being fired from his part-time job. 

Lucky him.

I asked him about his financial situation for paying for the graduate program since it’s freaking expensive. He said the Vice Chair of the Dept told him to get a job, and he responded to me that he doesn’t want to lose his Food Stamps or his MediCare because of a part-time job in order to finance his degree.

Okay… Ugh. It has been 3 years since I graduated from undergrad. I have held jobs and went to get an MS in BME (which didn’t turn out well since I failed a course). Now I am in debt, working and getting more into debt. Trying to apply for medical school for the past 2 years and building my resume. So unfair. 

He starts classes coming Monday. He plans to live in Baltimore, or else he would be commuting an hour each day. He plans to rent out his room in DC for a $1000, while it’s his parents own the place. I am paying $950 for my room in the apt. He will be making $1,950 for the mortgage, when according to title records the mortgage is close to $1000 (if not less). The rent in Baltimore will be $800 for a 2 bedroom apt. So he is pocketing all that. WTF!!! And he is basically not paying for food, or medical. UGH! 

Life is so unfair!

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